Life is teaching me some things I don’t want to learn
Like loving someone but not showing it because it’ll be too much for them to take
Like hurting but bearing it with gritted teeth in silence instead of speaking up about how you feel
Like pretending not to miss someone even though you spend every waking moment replaying everything that went wrong
Everything that made you lose a friend you had for so long
Like smiling even when you’re dying inside
Simply because in no one can you confide
Because you don’t know who is really there for you
And who… Their true intentions they hide
Lessons like not getting too excited about dreams you desire
Because in an instant they can expire.
Life… I don’t want these lessons
I want the lessons I learnt in those ladybug books I used to read
About happily ever afters
And the evils that could never succeed
I want the lessons about friendships that stand the test of time and dreams that never fade.
I want the lessons about never feeling pain and feeling joy again.
I miss the twinkle in my eyes when I once wore a smile
Now all I do is cry
And my tears I wipe away just so that I can face the day
Nodding emptily and smiling dryly to every howdy doo
And lying saying “I’m fine” to every “How are you?”